Done

Some people call it burn out, I call it done. Because although one feels like they should do less and cut down the calendar in half for all that matters, I figured out that what one should do is figure out what is causing the feeling. Because at the end of the day, if we do not do anything, then what sort of life are we living? So the problem is not that the amount of work is too much, although probably for some it is because they are expecting too much out of themselves. But the biggest problem is that we do things or end up in situations that do not align with our core any more.

But what does this mean? well I recently was reflecting on this and realized that it could be because you are forced out of your cycle, for example work usually comes in cycles: there are times where there is a lot of work where and you need to push it. Then there are the times when not so much is happening, where you can take care of the little things and smell the roses. And this is a cycle, but if an external force is removing the natural cycle and instead you find yourself in a constant push, well there is no replenishing.

But what is it when you feel Done? well this takes a special cocktail of things, this usually implies that you have sustained something for a long time and is not giving you the results you want. In other words it implies that you are not being met where you expect and that you have sustained a rhythm out of your pace for a long time. I recently feel like this and somehow all of the above tick the boxes. I can tell you of all the things that happened and the stories behind this feeling, but somehow I do not think that trying to make you understand where I am coming from is what I need in this situation. Because in doing so, I would be just indulging myself in a form of rumination. Mind you sometimes one needs to vent, but that’s why one has friends and coffee.

Somehow I feel that in order to release this feeling, is to figure out who we are at the core, what we want to be in our lives, and what is bothering us so much in the current life we are living. Probably not everything is, but we should take care of keeping what works and releasing what is not. And if we cannot keep what works, as the good and the bad go hand in hand, well figure out why you like what works and why you do not like the other parts.

I am hoping for myself that these experiences teach me to detect this way beforehand I get to this Done state. Well probably it is not my detection systems that need to be refined, but more that when they do sound the alarm, I believe them and not second guess myself. Because if I had to be honest, I did hear the alarms a long time ago, but I thought to myself that I am being paranoid and that there was no reason for me to take such drastic action. But here I am realizing how wise I was back then. And at this point a previous version of myself would have beaten myself up. But now I am realizing that I needed to experience this, in order to learn and understand myself better. As they say, it was a karmic cycle that needed to be fulfilled. I really like the sound of that. The experience is less than ideal, but from a learning perspective of self awareness it is the most valuable. So if anyone is reading this and somehow what I am experiencing is resonating with you, well ask yourself this questions:

1. What lesson am I learning about myself?

2. How can I design my life moving forward to take care that this newly found part of myself is protected and happy?

3. What rituals or habits can I implement in my daily life that can help me listen to my internal alarm bells?

Think hard, because literally the quality of your life depends on it. Take Care!